The questions we ask ourselves.

Today I filled out and submitted an application for an opportunity which I very much desire to be a part of.
The application posed several questions for us to answer: Why I want to be a filmmaker, how would I  describe myself and my work in one sentence, a bio, my inspiration, and what do I want to talk about in the film industry these days.
All of these were challenging to answer, but in a fun way!

It was the final question that took me off guard, and into mini tailspin over the last few days as I've been working away at the app:

"How do you consider your chances to succeed in the film industry as a professional film actor?"

Wow. Blunt.
Well the statistics say slim to none, but my grandmother totally thinks I'll be famous, so wheres the in-between? 
I've spent many a sleepless night debating this, many a coffee with a girlfriend too, but never have I ever had to seriously consider it and answer it in 1000 characters or less for a panel of film professionals. 

(If you're not an actor, I suggest you listen to this song, it's an example of our way of life)

I hope I'm not the only who worries, who stresses, who wonders where I'm going with this whole acting/filmmaking thing. I don't think I am.

After some mediation and listening to my heart, this is what I came up with for my answer. This is me, and how I feel today. I wanted to share it, for anyone else out there who sometimes feels frustrated too:


It's not a sprint, it's a marathon; a life long marathon full of joy and disappointment. 
It requires persistence, and inner honesty to be an actor. Plus everyone else and their dog wants to do this too. 
I don't know the 'chances' of success because sometimes decisions are based on height, or hair colour, or being in the right city.
I work hard to hone my craft, stay in touch with my agent, and create my own work to stay creatively fulfilled. 
By taking classes, workshops, doing yoga, personal growth, seeing as many plays and films as possible, and knowing deep down why I want to do this crazy job, I know I will succeed. 
Maybe one day, with all my hard work, that will lead me to be in the right place in the right time when they need someone with my hair colour who is 5'4".
In the meantime I find joy in the auditions, even the rejections, patience in being 'put on hold' and acceptance when the choice comes down to someone else.
Even with the stats, I continue to believe that my skills and love for this profession will lead me to success.



Fingers crossed they weren't looking for a business plan!

Happy Tuesday. May you listen to your heart today about why you are an artist.

xox

Jane